Happy 2010 everybuddy!
Let’s start the year with a post of thanksgiving and testimony about how God perked me up from my 2010 blues. Woo!
The past few weeks, I’ve been (quite frankly) feeling under the weather regarding the heading back to work. It came to a point of denial at the possible workload that would come my way in 2010. And frankly, I’ve been procrastinating over a number of things and literally hightailing it. Not a good testimony, I know. Sadly, when I’m in such a state, I just end up dropping everything and ignoring everything that’s important.
But that’s just how it works with me. Obviously, I haven’t been relying on God much.
I think I started to focus on the negative until it really made an impact on my mood. Those of you who know me, would generally feel that I’m a jolly person and I tend to think so for the most part. But sometimes, there’s a lot of unrest and disquiet within my spirit that I can’t settle. And I don’t talk about it only because I find that no one quite understands or sympathizes. I’m not writing a list of pity-party invitees, but it is true that I find that you can’t quite rely on anybody to be there when you want them to be.
At this point, I have to interject and say that God is supposed to be all I need, but He also didn’t make me an island. I’m not being resentful of friends — practically speaking, it’s how this world and relationships roll.
So I was planning on skipping out on Watchnight service to hang at home, cleaning my room and whining to myself, possibly playing the occasional Wii game (Mario Kart roxmysox) and watching the early episodes of Naruto. It smacked of all kinds of pathetic.
Until Angie and Wilson called. God sends the right people at the right time. We met for dinner and headed over. I honestly think they are a GODSEND. They probably thought I was feeling incredibly lonely. Which I was… not in a I-need-a-man way, but in a geez-fly-kite-again kinda way (sorry Mimi — although I know you’re sick). And best of all, I got to sit with one of my best buddies, Mr Ha, who ditched the kids at home with poor wife and made his way to the building.
In the end, I got to spend the 2010 countdown with people I consider gems. It was brilliant. God lifted me up from my dump the moment praise and worship started. Also, I got to experience Joel Tan style worship for the first time. That was great. And I also got to hear Esther Lim’s wonderful testimony and song… that was such a blessing. The message speared right into my spirit. I need to take action on that.
How many times must God bail me out for me to trust in Him? I don’t know, but suffice to say I’m kinda looking forward to the challenges of 2010 now. I will obviously feel better when I have a squeaky clean room to work in of course.
Then ah-girl-Goh can come by and visit. Haha!
Happy 2010, friends and may the new year be full of joy for you!
